||[Oct. 10th, 2008|10:10 pm]
|||||Another Love Song (QOTSA)||]|
Don't look for an explanation.
A really cool summer. Busy. But cool. Taking in such far-flung places as Edinburgh, Crete, Krakow, Jastkow, Glastonbury, Farringdon and Ealing. "From Kathmandu to Catford" and all that.
A major pay rise (just how major is yet to be confirmed). And what may even be a freeing from the trappedness of the last 6 years or so - the funny thing being how little I realise the trappedness.
So.... Listening to "Songs for the Deaf". Been ages since I listened to that album. Come back from being in the pub with a technical project manager and a board member, talking about department structuring. Sometimes wander why I don't become a management consultant, then remembering because it's BORING. So I f*** around in studios. Much more fun.
I have ideas. Finally. Lots of them. And they're going to get out. To a website near you. Not this one, in case you're wondering. Just which, and how, I dunno yet. But it's going to be actual, proper new media. Not some crappy video in a box. YouTube is merely the feeder, Joost the dull version. The potential is there. Can I do it? Christ knows, it's been so long. I've been reminded, a few times, what I used to be like - the drive, the passion. And it's coming back, I can feel it. Better, newer. I realise why I've felt so caged for so long. Now I'm working with more talented people. I've got film credits, I've worked on cutting-edge online. I can see the holes in what there is. But will they listen? Who knows. Let's see. If not, it's VFX for me. If so..... rock on London.
Yeah the content was crap, relatively. That's what happens when you're a physics student making TV. But now I'm a Digital Workflow Consultant making Interactive Propositions. OK so that's buzzword overload, but now I'm Pro. I can see the holes and I know the game.
The hard thing is that it means that certain people were right. Not that I was wrong, but blinded. But it's not to look back. It's to look forward, to the potential of 2009.